I’ve to STOP fighting!

This is a very vulnerable share.

I am sharing with you because in the many years of doing the work I do --helping hundreds of women achieve their dreams, with hundreds of pages of testimonials to prove it—  there has been a projection made on me. Which I have to take responsibility for.

A projection that I am a successful woman who has it all together. 

I have created a successful business that provides an amazing life doing what I love. To not be vague: I make over 10K dollar months helping inspiring women all over the world activate their feminine power to find their purpose and build the life & career they want.  

I coach women to turn their uniqueness into impactful (and financially successful) movements & businesses to build a better world. And I do this following a methodology I have created over the last decade of studies, research, and hands-on experience in Feminine Leadership. (a lifelong dream come true!)

The online sisterhood I steward grows every day and projects are blossoming all around me. 

I have a full team of competent women who work with me to develop, market and implement my work. 

I have also support in my everyday life so I can focus on creating content and teaching while my house, health & finances are taken care of.

I am falling in love with an amazing man… (more on this another day :) 

I am blessed and yet...

Sometimes, I feel like a failure.

I have asked of myself things that I have not been able to accomplish. And in this current phase of my life, going through the physical pain of my spine, I've come to accept that I have failed the expectations of my ego. 

On the other side of this acceptance, I found the greatest liberation. Now I can succeed to the desires of my heart & actually be happy & feel complete. 

Let me backtrack a little.

When I was a young girl, I had huge dreams. My parents raised me reminding me of my potential &  my sparkling personality often got me the “too much” title. 

What my little mind understood was: “I have a lot to give & a lot to achieve”. 

So I kept on asking myself really big things!  

I wanted to be a famous actress, the first Spanish one to win an Oscar before 20! 

I graduated from college in film direction & decided I was going to change the world with my movies! I learned 3 languages, 2 instruments, got a master’s… and then all of this felt superfluous, I felt there was something even deeper and I quit my life and went to India. 

I had my “spiritual awakening” where everything crashed, starting a long journey around the world devoted to finding out how to dig deeper into the source of my potential.

What was that thing that made me too much? That big mission I came here (this planet) to accomplish… How would I become who I was meant to be?

That’s when I came face to face with personal development, or how I prefer to call it: Personal Mastery. The awareness that we can grow into better versions of ourselves. 

I learned tools and techniques to grow out of my own limitations and the societal programming that I had inherited. 

I awakened the feminine within me & understood what the patriarchy was all about. 

I felt this was the missing key to my real power! 

And indeed it was, a whole new level of power was unlocked and I took on the mission to become the female version of Tony Robbins! 🤦‍♀️

For the last five years of my business, I’ve been on it:  online courses, thousands of women in sessions, one on one clients, world tours, speaking engagements, video content, and 1000s upon 1000s of dollars in revenue. 

Today, I'm sitting somewhat at the top of some imaginary mountain that I’ve created, climbed, and conquered. I feel grateful for the experience and humbled by the impact I have created in the world...

Yet there is a voice that wants more... 

There is always an inner voice that wants more…  Bigger numbers, more women in my trainings or I simply have more time for myself to just hang out with my girlfriends!!

That is the voice of my ego. 

Is the other side of the same voice that says: “I am not good enough” “You don’t have what it takes” “Don’t even try…” 

Ego has many voices... One goal: to keep us unhappy. 

What I have finally integrated & embodied is that I am perfectly ok failing to this voice’s expectations & demands.

I am done fighting!

I am choosing to lean into the voice of my heart, the voice of my pleasure, the voice of what I love doing, the voice of the women I serve, the voice of my WHY. 

And a paradoxical truth is: my life, health & business have taken (another) quantum leap ever since.

Today, as I am about to start one of the most successful programs that I run,  Younique, guiding women to create their Empire, the feminine way. I am choosing to fully walk my talk, coaching from a place of overflow, nourishment, inspiration, and pure alignment.

I feel a sense of relief and softness. I don't have to prove anything or hit any mark. 

I get to magnetize to me all I desire.

I get to do only what is authentically my highest joy:  guiding these women now to share their gift with the world because I believe the world needs this medicine today more than ever. 

This is my contribution, my legacy & my pleasure!

I hope this inspires you somehow. Life is short, we came here to do great things AND to be happy while doing them. Both are possible.

Thank you for witnessing my journey. Thank you for holding me accountable.

With Love, Presence & Renewed Softness,
Layla